So today pretty much had nothing good about it! I had a really opinionated nurse, who thinks that she can give to doctor advice to change orders about getting up to pee. Same one who would like me to tie my tubes. Also she didn't feel like my antibiotic needed to be given on time. Awesome!!
I got up ate, and went back to sleep after talking with my sister for a bit. I slept so I wouldn't have the hear her crap!
I got up at lunch, ate, then got a bath, and they moved me to a larger room. 106 now.
Little man heart tones are fabulous. And I am having no discharge, bleeding, or cramping, and no contractions. So that is the same sense this adventure started.
I miss my family, but that isn't anything new. I took a nap before dinner and met my new nurse at 7. She is nice and very attentive.
I did some cross stitch that my big sister got me I am kicking Butt on it! It is gonna look good.
I am tired but the meds they give me to sleep seem to hate me. I am nausas as always at night.
Any way tomorrow I get to see my baby boy ! Jason is bringing him in! So I can't wait for that. Ok goodnight!!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Happy Friday February 4th 2011
Today was a good day, I didn't get much sleep, but i was able to make up for it with a super long nap.
I woke up to visitors, First Amanda, which is so awesome.
then Momma came, with My nephew Trey,
My dad called to say hi. It was nice to talk to him.
Then Jessie, stopped by with twilight on cd for me. I am super excited about that!!!!
and then Whit and Kaylynn came by. and she bought me a snickers ice cream bar. which was faboulas.
dinner was good, i talked with my love, then played with my phone my Rummy game Which for the record is totally addicting. then i got ready for bed and now i am writing this to let all my people know that it was a good day.
so good night. i have a IV running right now cuz i am a little dehydrated. but after it is done i should feel better.
anyway, good night.
I woke up to visitors, First Amanda, which is so awesome.
then Momma came, with My nephew Trey,
My dad called to say hi. It was nice to talk to him.
Then Jessie, stopped by with twilight on cd for me. I am super excited about that!!!!
and then Whit and Kaylynn came by. and she bought me a snickers ice cream bar. which was faboulas.
dinner was good, i talked with my love, then played with my phone my Rummy game Which for the record is totally addicting. then i got ready for bed and now i am writing this to let all my people know that it was a good day.
so good night. i have a IV running right now cuz i am a little dehydrated. but after it is done i should feel better.
anyway, good night.
Friday, February 4, 2011
febuary, 3rd 2011
so i have past the 20 week mark, so i am one week closer to my goal. YAY!!
Today was a good day, i did have a little bit of a high sugar after breakfast, but i will see if it will continue to do so as the week goes on.
I had my bestest come visit with is wonderful Girl, and it was nice to talk about normal stuff.
The doctor took me off the "bedpan" I am now allowed to go to the bedside commode!!! i know this shouldn't excite me but it is really exciting.
getting out of bed even for half a second is nice. it is funny i have to prep my feet. by sitting on the side of the bed and put pressure on them so that the pins and needles become bearable.
I want to go home soooo much it is crazy, but Little man is the most important thing. We named him Conner Matthew, I am not sure that is the name that fits him.. I really like it, but it just donsnt seem to fit. so i am going to try a few different names but i don't know.
that is about it. nothing really that awesome, nothing really that bad, just another day.
Today was a good day, i did have a little bit of a high sugar after breakfast, but i will see if it will continue to do so as the week goes on.
I had my bestest come visit with is wonderful Girl, and it was nice to talk about normal stuff.
The doctor took me off the "bedpan" I am now allowed to go to the bedside commode!!! i know this shouldn't excite me but it is really exciting.
getting out of bed even for half a second is nice. it is funny i have to prep my feet. by sitting on the side of the bed and put pressure on them so that the pins and needles become bearable.
I want to go home soooo much it is crazy, but Little man is the most important thing. We named him Conner Matthew, I am not sure that is the name that fits him.. I really like it, but it just donsnt seem to fit. so i am going to try a few different names but i don't know.
that is about it. nothing really that awesome, nothing really that bad, just another day.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Wednesday Feb, 2 2011
Ok lets see, woke up, got introduced to my day nurse. of whom name was Dawn. she was nice enough. but she was well FUN!!
it was here are your medicine, how long are you here? how far along are you? you have a little boy? Oh please tell me you have signed your consent to tie those tubes..... WTF
I am so sick and tired of being told by random people that this is my only choice.. how the hell do they know what is right for me, and MY family. i have been sitting here are week today, it sucks, no question. However i am not prepared to make these decision with out 1: talking with my husband, 2: learning all my options 3: giving it some really hard and long thought; 4: talking with my doctor about the risks of another pregnancy a few years down the line. I would like to see and hear actual medical reason as to why this is the only thing for me. Is it because of my Cervix? or are you saying that cuz my diabetes? because your a NURSE. forgive me if i don't give a damn about your opinion. this will be a Hard thing to take in.. if it is in fact the way it has to be done. I am 27 years old, it isn't like i am 16 and have 2 kids and have 8 abortions. you know. I am a responsible mom/wife and i am going to do what is best for my family. however i am not making those decisions right now.. at 20 weeks into a sucky bed rest situation.
I then got pretty depressed cuz this being thrown into casual conversation is VERY hard on the brain. when i all i have to do is sit here and think about my unborn child, my son at home, my husband. the stress this whole situation has put on my family, and Jason's Family. not to mention the fact that overnight Jason became a Full time Single Dad, a Full time student, and a breadwinner of a family that right now isn't all here.
So i Slept a lot. waiting for my little boy to come visit. my mom's were bringing him in, which i was VERY grateful for. I got to spend time with him. Love on him. I opened a box of CHEX of which he loves and he spent time eating some, and feeding me some.. and with every bite Laughing. It was good for my heart. he sat with me for a while, and then went to play. and when his daddy got here he remembered who his favorite was, they are so cute together. I am grateful that he has his Daddy who he loves so much. they pretty much are the cutiest thing EVER> anyone who thinks differently is Crazy. My mom took Nikkii home which was good. cuz it was making me nervous leaving her in the Garage forever and a day, and even when i leave i will not be allowed to drive.
A weird part of the day was I was not Visited by the doctor today. which is odd.
I know that the people Covering doctor Richey's patients is a Group of doctors and i guess thier are 7 of them in the practice. I have Met 3 of them. a lady who was having the worst day ever, and you could tell, McDreamy, and and Wickfiald, I think is his name, who was very nice. and personable.
we did pick out a name for our son, however i have been calling him it all night and i am not sure it is right. so we may have to figure something else out.
anyway, other than the pretty much depressing morning, a great visit in the afternoon. and the boring evening watching Weeds on Net Flicks, It was Just another day.
on the diabetes front everything was pretty normal, there was a high that had a hard time coming down. but it did. and as an overall things were pretty good, meaning the corrections Made by my genius doctor Tanner were spot on as always.
anyway that was my day, I am going to bed toinght Early because i am just tired and slightly rundown.. and i have a nurse who has never worked this wing before, so she has never done a patient one strict bed rest. so that is fun, So i am going to bed and hope that Lyn is back tomorrow and my Day will be uneventful. and less stressful with very little bullshit. that is petty to even bring up.
Good night
it was here are your medicine, how long are you here? how far along are you? you have a little boy? Oh please tell me you have signed your consent to tie those tubes..... WTF
I am so sick and tired of being told by random people that this is my only choice.. how the hell do they know what is right for me, and MY family. i have been sitting here are week today, it sucks, no question. However i am not prepared to make these decision with out 1: talking with my husband, 2: learning all my options 3: giving it some really hard and long thought; 4: talking with my doctor about the risks of another pregnancy a few years down the line. I would like to see and hear actual medical reason as to why this is the only thing for me. Is it because of my Cervix? or are you saying that cuz my diabetes? because your a NURSE. forgive me if i don't give a damn about your opinion. this will be a Hard thing to take in.. if it is in fact the way it has to be done. I am 27 years old, it isn't like i am 16 and have 2 kids and have 8 abortions. you know. I am a responsible mom/wife and i am going to do what is best for my family. however i am not making those decisions right now.. at 20 weeks into a sucky bed rest situation.
I then got pretty depressed cuz this being thrown into casual conversation is VERY hard on the brain. when i all i have to do is sit here and think about my unborn child, my son at home, my husband. the stress this whole situation has put on my family, and Jason's Family. not to mention the fact that overnight Jason became a Full time Single Dad, a Full time student, and a breadwinner of a family that right now isn't all here.
So i Slept a lot. waiting for my little boy to come visit. my mom's were bringing him in, which i was VERY grateful for. I got to spend time with him. Love on him. I opened a box of CHEX of which he loves and he spent time eating some, and feeding me some.. and with every bite Laughing. It was good for my heart. he sat with me for a while, and then went to play. and when his daddy got here he remembered who his favorite was, they are so cute together. I am grateful that he has his Daddy who he loves so much. they pretty much are the cutiest thing EVER> anyone who thinks differently is Crazy. My mom took Nikkii home which was good. cuz it was making me nervous leaving her in the Garage forever and a day, and even when i leave i will not be allowed to drive.
A weird part of the day was I was not Visited by the doctor today. which is odd.
I know that the people Covering doctor Richey's patients is a Group of doctors and i guess thier are 7 of them in the practice. I have Met 3 of them. a lady who was having the worst day ever, and you could tell, McDreamy, and and Wickfiald, I think is his name, who was very nice. and personable.
we did pick out a name for our son, however i have been calling him it all night and i am not sure it is right. so we may have to figure something else out.
anyway, other than the pretty much depressing morning, a great visit in the afternoon. and the boring evening watching Weeds on Net Flicks, It was Just another day.
on the diabetes front everything was pretty normal, there was a high that had a hard time coming down. but it did. and as an overall things were pretty good, meaning the corrections Made by my genius doctor Tanner were spot on as always.
anyway that was my day, I am going to bed toinght Early because i am just tired and slightly rundown.. and i have a nurse who has never worked this wing before, so she has never done a patient one strict bed rest. so that is fun, So i am going to bed and hope that Lyn is back tomorrow and my Day will be uneventful. and less stressful with very little bullshit. that is petty to even bring up.
Good night
feb. 1 2011 day 6 i think
So, Yesterday... i was to tired to write about it yesterday.. but this morning i am gonna.
Woke up, checked my sugar promptly when back to sleep. Breakfast came, and i woke up to eat it. cuz my therapist was coming to visit. had a good visit, we talked about stuff.
I hung out.. it was a pretty uneventful day. Doctor McDreamy came in.. Just for the record his name is Doctor Hinkel. he is also Very nice on top of being Very Pretty. He informed me that i did have a UTI which he was giving me antibiotics for. also cuz the catheter is what gave me said infection he was going to write an order to take it out. and put another one in for the next 24 hours cuz i could probably get up and go pee on my own after a week of strict bed rest. This is Great News.
Jason Called me at his Lunch about 11:30 to say hi and tell me the Good news about Justin-head going potty in the potty. I wasn't happy.. he says I handled it badly.. cuz i wrote a blog.. one i am not unwriteing. I am allowed to feel like i am missing out. and in these circumstances i feel like it was something that i had already said and the was the way i feel should be respected.
Flowers Came from sisterly #4 and a cute cuddly leopard stuffed animal.. cuz they don't let real ones in here.
and i spoke with a close friend in washington. cuz she rocks and called me when she felt like i was having a bad day. Cuz she rocks like that!!!
Lunch, nothing to report. hung out, colored some pictures, talked to my sisterley, my grandma, and later my son.. which was awesome i LOVE talking to him. even if he spends most of the time finding things to put the phone in. LOL it is great to be involved in his playtime.
Dinner nothing to report. it was food. Doctor Tanner Called me ajusted my Basal rate and my sensitivety factor. also made apptements foe every monday at 4 for phone consults. and don't let other people touch my pump!!
Jason called me and was all mad about prior blog/facebook status. and we Yelled for a good hour or so. then i got to talk to my sir justin-head. before going to bed.
I had a good Night nurse.. but she is taking a zillion days off. so i wont see her for awhile. which sucks.
anyway. that was yesterday, i will write later tonight about today. but it isn't looking good. i hope justin-head is gonna be happy to see me. then things might start looking up.
Woke up, checked my sugar promptly when back to sleep. Breakfast came, and i woke up to eat it. cuz my therapist was coming to visit. had a good visit, we talked about stuff.
I hung out.. it was a pretty uneventful day. Doctor McDreamy came in.. Just for the record his name is Doctor Hinkel. he is also Very nice on top of being Very Pretty. He informed me that i did have a UTI which he was giving me antibiotics for. also cuz the catheter is what gave me said infection he was going to write an order to take it out. and put another one in for the next 24 hours cuz i could probably get up and go pee on my own after a week of strict bed rest. This is Great News.
Jason Called me at his Lunch about 11:30 to say hi and tell me the Good news about Justin-head going potty in the potty. I wasn't happy.. he says I handled it badly.. cuz i wrote a blog.. one i am not unwriteing. I am allowed to feel like i am missing out. and in these circumstances i feel like it was something that i had already said and the was the way i feel should be respected.
Flowers Came from sisterly #4 and a cute cuddly leopard stuffed animal.. cuz they don't let real ones in here.
and i spoke with a close friend in washington. cuz she rocks and called me when she felt like i was having a bad day. Cuz she rocks like that!!!
Lunch, nothing to report. hung out, colored some pictures, talked to my sisterley, my grandma, and later my son.. which was awesome i LOVE talking to him. even if he spends most of the time finding things to put the phone in. LOL it is great to be involved in his playtime.
Dinner nothing to report. it was food. Doctor Tanner Called me ajusted my Basal rate and my sensitivety factor. also made apptements foe every monday at 4 for phone consults. and don't let other people touch my pump!!
Jason called me and was all mad about prior blog/facebook status. and we Yelled for a good hour or so. then i got to talk to my sir justin-head. before going to bed.
I had a good Night nurse.. but she is taking a zillion days off. so i wont see her for awhile. which sucks.
anyway. that was yesterday, i will write later tonight about today. but it isn't looking good. i hope justin-head is gonna be happy to see me. then things might start looking up.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Tuesday, Feb. 1, 2011 Day Im pissed off.
Ok, so this is a vent, i probably am going to say shit that isn't going to make sense to anyone be me. and Might even hurt peoples feelings and i don't give a damn.
You have been warned.
SO i get a call from Jason this morning, Justin i guess when pee on a potty, well, Let me tell you i am PISSED. and i am going to explain why, I have already said to the woman who feels it is her place to do my job. I Know he isnt ready to potty train yet. he shows no signs and testing my attority just because i am not there.. ISNT COOL. in my option signs of potty training are.
1: telling you im dirty/wet by bringing you a diaper when he is either.
2: following you into the bathroom with curiosity with what your doing
and those are the early signs. IMHO
He isn't doing any of these things. we had this conversation last week when you called me to thank me for getting info on your damn dog. you said that it would be cool to have him potty trained by the time this kiddo is born, I said yeah except he isn't ready.
as my nurse Lin says "you could train a dog to go in a potty if you put him on the potty ever 15 min" and my sister said "if you put him on the potty every hour on the hour he is bound to go at least once a day. "
Mostly I am not only stuck here without much contact to my LIFE AKA justin-head. and the person watching him is Super excited to step into my place by Pushing him into potty training. next thing you know they are going to change his WHOLE schedule because you don't give a damn about what mine is. and you think it is better that way.
It is bad enough that not only am i being told that i Cant have any other children. which is going to piss this person off also cuz you want me to have another one. but I get to never have a Girl. AWESOME> no not awesome Heartbreaking. and Me MISSING HUGE steps in my 18 month old child isn't make me feel any better. I am already FULLY aware that i am going to miss the moment he wakes up and starts talking in full sentences. so Respectfully FUCK YOU and your way of doing shit. how about you respect me and do things my way. i am sure i was the one they ripped him out of. that makes him MINE
My point is, Im mad, and you have no right. he doesn't need a new mom. He has one.
You have been warned.
SO i get a call from Jason this morning, Justin i guess when pee on a potty, well, Let me tell you i am PISSED. and i am going to explain why, I have already said to the woman who feels it is her place to do my job. I Know he isnt ready to potty train yet. he shows no signs and testing my attority just because i am not there.. ISNT COOL. in my option signs of potty training are.
1: telling you im dirty/wet by bringing you a diaper when he is either.
2: following you into the bathroom with curiosity with what your doing
and those are the early signs. IMHO
He isn't doing any of these things. we had this conversation last week when you called me to thank me for getting info on your damn dog. you said that it would be cool to have him potty trained by the time this kiddo is born, I said yeah except he isn't ready.
as my nurse Lin says "you could train a dog to go in a potty if you put him on the potty ever 15 min" and my sister said "if you put him on the potty every hour on the hour he is bound to go at least once a day. "
Mostly I am not only stuck here without much contact to my LIFE AKA justin-head. and the person watching him is Super excited to step into my place by Pushing him into potty training. next thing you know they are going to change his WHOLE schedule because you don't give a damn about what mine is. and you think it is better that way.
It is bad enough that not only am i being told that i Cant have any other children. which is going to piss this person off also cuz you want me to have another one. but I get to never have a Girl. AWESOME> no not awesome Heartbreaking. and Me MISSING HUGE steps in my 18 month old child isn't make me feel any better. I am already FULLY aware that i am going to miss the moment he wakes up and starts talking in full sentences. so Respectfully FUCK YOU and your way of doing shit. how about you respect me and do things my way. i am sure i was the one they ripped him out of. that makes him MINE
My point is, Im mad, and you have no right. he doesn't need a new mom. He has one.
January 31 2011 day whatever
Today was a good day, no crashes, which makes the staff feel better. a few kinks, cuz they are bound to happen. happened in the evening.
Morning, I woke up, said hello to the oncoming nurse, Lin. who as i have said before is AWESOME!!! so i took a nap, till about 9:30 I woke up and had breakfast, Cream of Wheat!! yay.. and a blueberry muffin. after breakfast, the Diabetes educator came in to talk with me... she made some adjustment on my pump. which Tanner may not like.. but i don't know. she is friendly. she said that she felt like i need and specialist on my case. and said that if tanner wouldn't do it. then Nolan would.. I don't like nolan. i have met him... he just doesn't do things my style. She said to see if tanner would be my doc. my first thought was well of course he will. Im HIS patient and have been forever. anyway, we clicked nicely, her name was Amy.
after Amy and i were done with our discussion i made a few calls, one to Nella My Therapist, whom i would miss an appointment.. on tuesday, so i called to cancel it and asked her people to call my people. I followed that phone call with a call to Doctor Tanners office. as i have an appointment on Wednesday. I asked if he had rights at Providence or if they knew of a way for us to get together. they made an phone consult at 12:30 tuesday. that call was followed by a call from his medical assistant Bill whom i adore, professionally. (i love the whole office). he said that tanner was back in the office, he would talk with him and tell him what was going on. he then looked at my pump download. and was sympathetic to the crazy rollercoster ride i have been on.
that was about it for the morning, In the afternoon i called my dear friend Maria, we talked for a while about stuff.. her stuff, my stuff, random stuff that had relevance to anyones stuff. It was so nice to just talk. I also received a nice message Via Facebook that was both supportive and really nice. Thank you. as well as nice comments that also made me feel a lot better about my role in my sons life. I have Lunch, which was ok but did result in a low blood sugar a few hours later, i had them hook up my IV port to some sugar so i didn't have to try so hard. to get it up. and it makes them feel better.
Jason came to visit, we cuddled a little, and talked about Babies room, and how it was going to be decorated. Money, and Justin-Head. He left and i was alone again. I spoke with Amie, she was doing well it seems. which makes me smile. i love that my family is doing well, and i feel like the better they are doing the better i feel. they came and checked baby boy, and while i was hooked up listening to that heartbeat i love so much, my phone rang and Nella was calling to say she would come see me in the hospital, at 9:30 tomorrow. So Family Continue to do amazing. it is good for me!!
I got dinner which looked horrible, so i called my bestest, Berick and begged him to bring me Arbys. which he did. and it was amazing. he visited and it was nice again telling all the stories of the stuff that has happened which means i don't have to like everyone.
while he was here the hospiatalest came in and basically said that low sugars are something she doesn't want to see. and FYI it is bad for you baby, DUH. but i guess it had to be put out there. anyway it was an ok visit she wasn't as nice as her partner, but you cant have everyone like you.
Berick left and they pulled out urine out of my Cath. which for all those who don't want to know, Hurts. I had also suffered a Ridiculous headache earlier in the day. my sugar ran a little high after dinner and i am waiting for my sugar to go down so i may go to sleep. peacefully. the nurse informed me that the doctor would like me to correct my sugars with skim milk. I told her i would stick what i know unless My Diabetic expert says he thinks that is a good idea. you cant tell me to do things with out giving me a good reason. unless i trust you and well i don't. yet. So good night. Here is to a Not horrible day.
Morning, I woke up, said hello to the oncoming nurse, Lin. who as i have said before is AWESOME!!! so i took a nap, till about 9:30 I woke up and had breakfast, Cream of Wheat!! yay.. and a blueberry muffin. after breakfast, the Diabetes educator came in to talk with me... she made some adjustment on my pump. which Tanner may not like.. but i don't know. she is friendly. she said that she felt like i need and specialist on my case. and said that if tanner wouldn't do it. then Nolan would.. I don't like nolan. i have met him... he just doesn't do things my style. She said to see if tanner would be my doc. my first thought was well of course he will. Im HIS patient and have been forever. anyway, we clicked nicely, her name was Amy.
after Amy and i were done with our discussion i made a few calls, one to Nella My Therapist, whom i would miss an appointment.. on tuesday, so i called to cancel it and asked her people to call my people. I followed that phone call with a call to Doctor Tanners office. as i have an appointment on Wednesday. I asked if he had rights at Providence or if they knew of a way for us to get together. they made an phone consult at 12:30 tuesday. that call was followed by a call from his medical assistant Bill whom i adore, professionally. (i love the whole office). he said that tanner was back in the office, he would talk with him and tell him what was going on. he then looked at my pump download. and was sympathetic to the crazy rollercoster ride i have been on.
that was about it for the morning, In the afternoon i called my dear friend Maria, we talked for a while about stuff.. her stuff, my stuff, random stuff that had relevance to anyones stuff. It was so nice to just talk. I also received a nice message Via Facebook that was both supportive and really nice. Thank you. as well as nice comments that also made me feel a lot better about my role in my sons life. I have Lunch, which was ok but did result in a low blood sugar a few hours later, i had them hook up my IV port to some sugar so i didn't have to try so hard. to get it up. and it makes them feel better.
Jason came to visit, we cuddled a little, and talked about Babies room, and how it was going to be decorated. Money, and Justin-Head. He left and i was alone again. I spoke with Amie, she was doing well it seems. which makes me smile. i love that my family is doing well, and i feel like the better they are doing the better i feel. they came and checked baby boy, and while i was hooked up listening to that heartbeat i love so much, my phone rang and Nella was calling to say she would come see me in the hospital, at 9:30 tomorrow. So Family Continue to do amazing. it is good for me!!
I got dinner which looked horrible, so i called my bestest, Berick and begged him to bring me Arbys. which he did. and it was amazing. he visited and it was nice again telling all the stories of the stuff that has happened which means i don't have to like everyone.
while he was here the hospiatalest came in and basically said that low sugars are something she doesn't want to see. and FYI it is bad for you baby, DUH. but i guess it had to be put out there. anyway it was an ok visit she wasn't as nice as her partner, but you cant have everyone like you.
Berick left and they pulled out urine out of my Cath. which for all those who don't want to know, Hurts. I had also suffered a Ridiculous headache earlier in the day. my sugar ran a little high after dinner and i am waiting for my sugar to go down so i may go to sleep. peacefully. the nurse informed me that the doctor would like me to correct my sugars with skim milk. I told her i would stick what i know unless My Diabetic expert says he thinks that is a good idea. you cant tell me to do things with out giving me a good reason. unless i trust you and well i don't. yet. So good night. Here is to a Not horrible day.
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